i believe fat is a very very very big thing in my life, also as everything happens for a reason is very big thing in my life, i believe this cause i live a very rideclous life, very odd things always happen to me, it always been w/ me life this since i was little, and the shit i deal w/ esp w/ guys just shows and tell me there's fate and ill keep on believin' till im happy again

i usually dont like her.
but this cover is sic <3

As soon as you stop wanting something, you get it.-Andy Warhol
<3

this is loveee.
this is the love me and boyy got.

its amazing.


funny thing is when he comes
we gonna take pictures in photobooth

the simple things make me happy


fuck
thrus is one year.

can we possibly makin this work
even w/ all the bad.


im kinda freakin.

I'm lost in my thoughts
and darkness does surround
i can't see much of anything
there's madness all around

i'll fight for my cause
there's reason to this fact
these are my emotions here
i'll try to stay intact

my confusion has not settled
my sanity is at stake
i'm losing to the silence
and this is not so fake

this feeling may be real
but anxiety takes it toll
i'm lost within this chaos
but this emotion just won't roll

i once felt so alive
but inside i'm now dead
these visions are just so maddening
but it's all just in my head

i'm now at a loss for words
though i may have lost my mind
i'll just sit here and keep thinking
cause maybe i'll find the time..

there's a lot of food i would miss seeing that i eat alot for a skinny white girl. but i must say it deff be tacos and sushiii <3

You cannot escape a basic dilemma now as your head and heart tug in different directions. The tension is set up by the logical Gemini Moon, reminding you to think your way through any problem. But you Fish prefer to rely on your gut instincts to make a decision because you know that facts can lie. Today, however, don't trust either; the answer is not found in the rational or the emotional side of the debate. Instead, jump directly into the action with no further analysis at all.

i cant really explain what this means, but this horscope today means a fuck a lot, and even if i did try to explain it take too long which time is somethin i dont have and most people wouldnt understand except if u are beyond close to me, and idk the gemini part is so true its scaring me to death..


just wow. thats all i can say, i know i dont make fuckin sense. and i kno im goin insane. thanks =]

this is such an odd question for me but a good question in all, cause i know a lot about the whole prison thing, my last 3 guys i was w/ went to jail on me, and i could tell you what they hated what they miss, the list could go on but i know for a fact i would never go to prison [knocks on wood] but in the worst fact i did. i miss the one who gave a fuck about me, i miss the freedom i can go anywhere i want, i would miss workin, i miss drinkin anything i want, eating anything i want, all in all i miss fuckin everything, cause in reality when your in there you have nothing....u have no commucation at all, i kno this cause i see it happened to people i care about and now they are depressed and rotting...and that makes me see to be a good person and never get into that sitation ever, but i do care about people who get in that shity sitation, what can i say in the end im a good person go figure, i think i went lil to depth of this question of what it was asked, but meh it happens =]

=]

texting by far. esp for the fact i have one of those trendy at +t go phonee. and most people text these days, so i made sure i got unlimited texting for 19.99 =] and i dont really like talkin on the phone these days anyways, unless ur select few that i do enjoy speakin to =] hehe

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Flirtiness - 87.5% 2. Appearance - 75% 3. Varied Interests - 71.4% 4. Sense of Humor - 71.4% 5. Open-Mindedness - 63.6%	1. Selfishness - 81.8% 2. Temper - 75% 3. Vanity - 75% 4. Arrogance - 62.5% 5. Pessimism - 50%

Dating Strengths Explained
Flirtiness - Flirting is a good way to break the ice, and you are a pro at it. Being flirtatious will open up many dating opportunities. Appearance - Despite what some will say, appearance matters in dating. You get high marks on appearance. Just make sure you balance it out with other qualities. Varied Interests - You don't limit yourself, and that's a dating asset. Your varied interests make you available and interesting to a wider range of guys. Sense of Humor - Guys are attracted to people with a good sense of humor. Be sure to put yours on display! Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available guys.
Dating Weaknesses Explained
Selfishness - You think too much of yourself and your needs. You must learn to put your partner first and tend to his needs. Temper - You need to work on controlling your temper. Don't let your anger get the best of you. A calm and rational persona is important when dating. Vanity - Learn to put a lower priority on looks. Appearance is, of course, important, but vanity is undesireable. The only people you will attract are the superficial. Arrogance - You are a bit full of yourself. You need to practice a little humility now and then, as arrogance can be a turn-off. Pessimism - Too much cynicism can be a turn-off. Try to see the brighter side of things and people will be attracted to your positive outlook.
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I will love you when the snow falls
I will love you in the end
small footsteps stride to your door,
waiting -
never for particular things
just waiting, to wait.

you lay here, next to me yet not so close
with my eyes i try to unravel you
unravel everything -
words are harsh my love
especially mine.

i love you
even when unravelled, even once the wait is over.

could i ever make sense of it all?

"i can't live with or without you."
"i can't live with or without you."

hate hate hate and more hate. touchey subject much, im 22 yrs old and i never had a REAL valentines never had one period, and its to the point i dont think i ever will, i was actually lookin forward this yr, but as always im disappointed cuz things never go correctly, it was suppose be with petey but of course he fucked up by being in a jail cell, awesome righttt? i did get jail v-day cards from him, its nice and thoughtful and beautiful how he draws and its just not the same and never will be, maybe im just one of those people destined to be alone on v-day who knows. but yeah in conclusion fuck valentines. rawr. cupid deff epic failed once again lol

argh

the living thing, my life tends to be rideclous, close people die, guys come and go, people close to me go to jail, including the guy im terribly in love with and i want to give up as we know it and even through i feel like death should come to me, cause i have nothing left, i dont die, cause in end im mother fuckin strong person, heartless but strong as they say "to be strong you gotta be heartless".

it saids one day, but i want pick one week over. and that would be the week before dec13th 2008, the week i stayed with pete, and everything was perfect and amazing and how it should be but of course in the end i get fucked cause im horrible timing and luck, awesome